October 2009
10872.) I am so sick of making it look like I can...
4880.) I’m tired of always feeling alone. Always. But I don’t let anyone in because feeling alone is better than getting hurt.
4874.) I think we should just kiss already.
4813.) i wish i loved someone, i wish i longed for someone. I can’t. I can’t find anyone to even remotely like. Instead, i find everything wrong with them and convince myself that they aren’t worth...
September 2009
6333.) I’ve out grown my friends. We’ve out grown each other. But we’re still pretending we’re the same people we used to be. Our friendship is fake, an illusion. The saddest part is, I’m playing along.
6389.) I miss the conversations we used to have. Now every time we talk it’s short, and I’m so afraid of saying something stupid, that I’m left with...
“8426.) At lunch i choose a seat where i can see you perfectly.
8392.) I hate...”
Lately, I’ve been pretty down and stressed out with life. Boys, school and being president is ten times harder than everything. I’ve been wanting to give up on everything for a few. Until I read this:
“It’s going to be okay.
Please, don’t give up.”
Now I’m not going to. I’m stronger than this.
“10451.) Everything is going to be okay.”
“I don’t know what I want and something is missing. I don’t know...”
It's been tough,
real tough. School’s just getting harder and harder. I brought my grades up real high then it dropped .3 in one day. I need to bring them back up again. And I really want to transfer to honors WH second semester. I feel stupid not taking any honors. Soccer’s getting harder too. I’m starting to feel more pressure that I’m trying to get on var now. Student government, aaah...
You should be,
I had my first season game today. We tied. I scored one. That team was a bunch of bitches that don’t shutup. I played in front of andy, mchs’ var coach today. Lightweight nervous. But I feel I played good.
I made a vow to myself that I’m making var this year and getting that lettermen jacket on me.
